I started cross dressing when I was 13 and a half years old and see the neighbor girl who was a few years older than me pleasing her friend in their hot tub. I totally enjoyed the feminine feelings and womanly wants and desires it gave me. I begin fantasizing and desiring to know what it would feel like to please a man more and more. But, the fear anyone ever knowing and finding out about my fantasies feelings and desires I kept them hid and never share them with anyone. As I grew older the intensity of my desires and fantasies grew also until by chance just a few years ago. I was out driving around crossdressed and got a flat tire. While changing the tire if friends see my car and pull over to help. When he seen how I was dressed he walked over to me with his cock hanging out and said while I was down there I could take care of that too. I gladly did and for the next two weeks suck his cock 5 more times. after the past few years of wanting but not knowing where to go or how to find I no longer care who knows anything. I know now just how short life can be have tired of cheating myself out of the enjoyment of life. I am looking for a man , a woman, a couple or TV TS CD to help me fulfill my wants needs and desires while pleasing and satisfying your own. I want someone that will make me and treat me like there sissy bitch sex slave and use me for anything and everything they desire or or watch. I will let you get it in all limits and have total control.